my birthday

Posted on July 12th, 2011 by mountain girl  |  4 Comments »

It’s funny how when you are a kid, your birthday is all about the day: the cake, the fun activities, the balloons and streamers – and oh those presents. Then you hit 16, 18 and 21, and it’s all about your age – you’ve been around a while and you’re entitled to certain things now. You also feel you’ve accumulated some smarts (few as they may be) and you’re proud of that.

But then you get older, let’s just say…older than 35. It’s not really about the day or the accumulation of loot anymore, nor is it about those sweet digits on your ID. Suddenly it’s about your whole life – the years that have gone by so quickly and the ones you think you might have left.

Today on my birthday I did think about the day – it was cloudy and cool, and the wildflowers were all closed up; not like yesterday when their sweet faces were wide open to the sun. I even briefly thought about the number: but being 36 is not terribly significant, except maybe that it is a year beyond what is considered mid-life.

More than those things though, I thought about my life as a whole – the past, the present, the future. And yes, it’s going by so fast, but it’s so darn sweet. Even through the challenges where I’ve been sick or the emotional stuff where I thought I’d break in half if I cried any harder, through the things I’ve regretted or when I’ve just been plain stupid, still I’ve lived. I’m incredibly thankful for this life, and I have lived it fully every single day. Never have I been tested or tried above what I can handle, and I have always been rescued even when I felt hopeless. I’ve been forgiven for the things I’ve failed in, and given more chances to succeed.

And though I feel the reality of standing alone today, of taking account of my life that has gone by and considering the eternity before me, yet again I think of the people I’ve been given to share my life with. My parents who built my foundation with so much care; my little girl whose laughter lights up my life; my strong husband who loves me so well; my friend Darci whose listening ear is priceless to me. Life has been so much richer because of these and so many others.

Above all that, I have a God who loves me, whose faithfulness is as strong and steady as those mountains out my door. For that I’m most thankful…on my birthday and every plain old day!

4 Responses to “my birthday”

  1. Your Lion says on :

    Happy Birthday My little red haired girl!!! I love you more and more everyday and I am so happy I have you in my life!

    Your Loving Lion
    /:O*

  2. jodi says on :

    Happy birthday!! I love your take on birthdays as the years go by. I am so glad your day was relaxed and special and insightful. You are a wonderful woman of God!

  3. Susan says on :

    Amen! Happy Birthday!

  4. IDA GARDNER/GRANNY says on :

    HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY. YOUR COMMENTS ARE SO TRUE EVEN FOR ME WHO AM ALMOST TWICE YOUR AGE. GOD IS SO GOOD AND SO FAITHFUL. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE FOR MY GRANDSON,WHOM I LOVE SO VERY MUCH.

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